I initially chose this name for my blog because it was alliterative. The word remix signified the mixture of my interests in life. Those interests include fitness, style, natural hair care, skincare, travel, career, food, family and spirituality/religion. Those categories pretty much summarize different aspects of my lived experience. The goal was to create a lifestyle blog so that seemed to fit. It’s a RE-mix.
I began to jot down different notes and attempted creating content that focused on these topics, but I just felt like it wasn’t coming together for me. I felt overwhelmed. A blogger has to be an expert in at least one area. That’s what all of the How To guides say. How can I claim expertise in any of these areas? I’m an amateur at best. Why would anyone want to read what I have to write? Who am I? What am I even doing with my life?!” I continued with this train of thought asking myself all of the typical questions that a millennial experiencing their second quarter life crisis would ask. Somewhere in there I remembered this F. Scott Fitzgerald quote, s/o to my high school English teacher. Hey Wams!
“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you have something to say.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald
This blog thing wasn’t coming together because I was not being authentic. I wanted my blog to be pretty and give off the vibe that I have it all figured out. That’s why I didn’t have much to say because that is not my experience. I was trying to build something on a perfect façade when I’m not perfect. As much as I try to remain positive everything is not all sunshine and rainbows over here. If I start there, then that is where my real voice comes through. So that is where we will begin. I am not flawless. I did not “wake up like this.” The money is not calling. The career path I am on is not super fun and glamorous. I could go on, but I digress.
When I ask myself, “What am I doing with my life,” the answer is delicious ambiguity. I thought I knew what I wanted to do. I went after that and now that I am here, it doesn’t feel like it’s what I really want. It is okay because I am still alive and able to design the life I really want. The Remix has taken on a new meaning.
I’m not writing this blog because I want you to take me as an authority on any of my aforementioned personal interests. I am writing this blog as a means of therapeutic release, as a tool to help me redefine who I am, reclaim my voice and design the life that I truly desire. That is my something to say. I am sharing my lived experience and my perspective with you, as only I can, in the hopes that you will be encouraged to live out your own remix.
The end. Or should I say… let it begin!